Tuesday, September 15, 2009
i feel like my blog is behind
today i heard the prophets voice. i cried. i felt pure happiness and peace, and it was wonderful to be sitting next to my best friend who i will be spending forever with. i've had so many opportunities to grow and learn from the spirit, especially the past couple of weeks. my testimony of the savior Jesus Christ becomes stronger each day as i choose to live what i know is right. what an amazing thing. what a blessing. my world is incredibly happy and wonderful right now, and yet as there is opposition in all things, i have been experiencing great loss. many people around me have voiced opinions, and i know they care deeply about me. some people don't understand choices im making. thats ok. some may say im rushing things. im not. im not rushed at all. im happy. i hope that with time people will trust the decisions i make because they trust and love me. because the harsh words and disbelief provide no help to me. i know that as time passes and they see how truly happy i am they will know as i do how right this is. how exceptionally wonderful my decision is. how marrying dave dixon is the biggest and best decision i will make in this life. i feel at home.
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Oh my Goodness Girl! Are you engaged!!!??? I'm doing one of your Showers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Oh I am sooo extremely happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteYou're right, Jessica. There are so many of us who do love you. And ya we're really concerned. But a month ago would you have looked on one of your friends who was doing the same thing you are, and just been okay with it? Would you have not thought about how reckless it looked? Would you have not thought to yourself "There's no way you can REALLY know someone after only a few weeks"? I mean really think about it. Some of these people have known you for years and years. Then they try to voice their opinion to you, and you shut them down completely. For a guy you've known for maybe a month. Maybe you could look at how much you're hurting your best friends for not thinking about them like you usually do. For not spending any time with them or really talking to them or listening to them because you're so star-struck. For pretty much telling them that they know nothing about what's going on, or about you. Maybe they would know if you would talk to them a little more.
ReplyDeleteLook, I know I haven't been the best friend either. I haven't talked to you in awhile. I haven't hung out with you, which is something I'd love to do in the next week, but now I don't know if you'll want to see me at all because of this note, and plus you probably wouldn't have time for me anyway. But Jessica, be real. Pop your head out of your little magic shell and see everything you have, not just David Dixon. Don't take everything else for granted.
Now for some clarity, I think it's great that you love this Dave guy. I think it's great that you two want to get married and spend eternity together. I know what it's like to know someone for a VERY short amount of time and to fall in love. You definitely know I know that. I'm not upset at all that this is the decision you're making, or that you're making it so quickly. I'm upset that you're shutting down everyone who has given you everything for years. And those who may have only known you for a much shorter time, but still learned to love you a lot just the same.
Don't make the mistake of looking over those who you'll need throughout your life. You can't do it with just a husband.
Hey, this is probably none of my business. But I thought I'd add this. Michael and I went out on a thursday, then friday,and then everyday after that to this day. In a week we knew like we knew that we were going to be married. Of course we waited another 6 months to be married for the ease of our families. But like you and dave micheal was my everything. I know almost exactly what you are going through. (mike and I are 7 years apart) Heres my two sense. If you and dave have both recieved answers not only through prayer, but also in the temple, and if you two are planning a temple wedding, and if you love his guts more than any other person, I think you two should be married. When micheal and I were engaged no one else exsisted. Not on purpose, we really tried to still hang out with our friends but engagment is courting. Only the two of you exist in each others eyes. And that is perfectly okay. as a matter of fact it shouldn't be any other way. So darren when you become engaged you will see its not jessica purposely ignoring her friends. Shes in love! end of story. This is how it works. Word of advice though. Mike and I always kept a midnight curfew. It helps. Even if you hate it. =) Love you Jess
ReplyDeleteChrissy you are an angel. Your words mean so much to me. Thank you. I can't tell you how much your support means to me. You are exactly right :) I hope my life can be as happy as yours is!!!
ReplyDeleteYou Rock Chrissy :D Thank you!
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